Two Mondays ago, we went with our friends to Dennis the Menace park and the beach in Monterey. The kids really enjoyed themselves and were very well behaved. I think I would have enjoyed myself a bit more, if I wouldn't have received the depressing news of Newel not getting the job in Mexico City. I wasn't trying to get my hopes up, but I was a bit disappointed. I know we're supposed to go, wherever the Lord needs us to go. I need to be more trusting in His plan for us. I know living in Mexico City wouldn't have been that sweet for me, overall. It would have been too dangerous and I would have been very paranoid that someone was going to steal my children. Plus, with the crazy traffic, I don't think I would have gone out much, especially if I had to drive. I said I wasn't going to worry, until the end of April, but at times I do get tired of people asking me where we're going and I just reply, "I don't know." Uncertainty, can be exciting at times, but other times it's...well, uncertain and a bit worrysome. I'm trying my best to stay positive, after all, being at Stanford has been an amazing experience for us. I don't know where we'll be by the end of the school year...back in FL? Texas? Living in my in-laws basement? San Diego? Who knows.
In my life, I've found that things work out for a reason, and it may take years to figure out why something didn't happen the way we thought it would. For example, when I turned down my admissions to BYU, as a Senior in high school, I was very sad and dissappointed. I didn't go since I didn't have my green card at that time, and I didn't want my parents paying for my education...among other reasons. Looking back(years later), it was a wonderful decision to not go to BYU. If I would have gone, I would have never met Newel, who happens to be the most important person in my life. He's my best friend, and the love of my life. With him, life has been amazing and never a dull moment. We've had many wonderful experiences together. We have the most amazing and beautiful children. We're raising our children the best we can...and I'm realizing my dreams of having an Eternal family, with a wonderful man...could that have been accomplished if I would have gone to BYU? Probably not (plus I realized I'm not a cougar fan =) ). I might have met someone, but perhaps, not as wonderful as Newel. He has just about everything I've wanted on a husband, a father, a companion. At the time I turned down my admissions, I didn't know these wonderful experiences were in store for me, but He did and I'm so glad I was guided to follow Him.
I know years from now, I'll look at these trials, and be thankful for them...and I'll know the reason why I needed to have these experiences...perhaps to learn to be humble, to learn sympathy, patience...stay positive...
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Paka says, Karen is so good. You are resonnating with the Spirit. It's taken me until now to learn what you know at such a young age: Trust in the Lord, because the second estate (2nd act) isn't flowing over with "happy mortal endings". But our righteous goals get us where we want to be in the end (the 3rd act). Thank you so much for sharing the pictures and your heart-felt thoughts. We both think you are amazing, Karen, and we are so grateful to be a part of your family. Love forever!
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